Artwork description: Enclosed in a corner, hidden in the line, emotionless in thought, I seek compromises within myself.
Artwork description long: My work is based on a perceptual disorder called derealization, in which a person perceives the surrounding world as unreal, hazy, or as if it were all taking place behind glass. The surroundings seem immaterial, lifeless, or even distorted. This disorder arises as a natural reaction of the brain to extreme stress, fatigue, or trauma. One of the symptoms is also a change in the perception of time, along with a numbing of emotions and empathy. It is not just one’s perception that becomes dulled, but all of the senses. In the installation, I focused on hearing, touch, and sight, which were the most impaired for me during this state. My entire body of work, together with the installation, is a personal record of my experience with derealization. During that period, I was numb, and my perceptions—both emotional and sensory—were virtually neutralized. The installation consists of three objects, each of which expresses a different shift in reality. The paper object conveys delicacy and a disrupted perception, while the glass object appears as a distorted reality. Light and shadows signify the final retreat of derealization. The sound of breathing in the installation intensifies the sensation of the passage of time. I was losing touch with reality; everything felt distant.
Artwork description long: My work is based on a perceptual disorder called derealization, in which a person perceives the surrounding world as unreal, hazy, or as if it were all taking place behind glass. The surroundings seem immaterial, lifeless, or even distorted. This disorder arises as a natural reaction of the brain to extreme stress, fatigue, or trauma. One of the symptoms is also a change in the perception of time, along with a numbing of emotions and empathy. It is not just one’s perception that becomes dulled, but all of the senses. In the installation, I focused on hearing, touch, and sight, which were the most impaired for me during this state. My entire body of work, together with the installation, is a personal record of my experience with derealization. During that period, I was numb, and my perceptions—both emotional and sensory—were virtually neutralized. The installation consists of three objects, each of which expresses a different shift in reality. The paper object conveys delicacy and a disrupted perception, while the glass object appears as a distorted reality. Light and shadows signify the final retreat of derealization. The sound of breathing in the installation intensifies the sensation of the passage of time. I was losing touch with reality; everything felt distant.